I know this pretty amazing girl, but she's in a lot of pain. Many of her friends (actually most of them) couldn't do what she does. She fights a real battle every day. Yeah, did I mention she's pretty amazing?
I was trying to think about what gave me hope when I was in a dark space and didn't have any. I couldn't remember who I was, what I was good at, why anyone would like me, or what I used to enjoy doing - it just seemed buried somewhere in me. What gave me hope were people who cared to pick up a shovel and help me dig and get that stuff back.
There was no expectation on me to do anything. I didn't have energy to respond. I needed to spend it on more critical things, but that didn't bother them. So this is just one way for me to show I care. You can visit it anytime you want or not, but I'll still update it daily. It's just a reminder of all the good things that you are and all the things you can do, that you are capable of.
I wish I knew how to take away this pain, Lisa. I can't fix this, but I will be here shovel in hand so you don't have to go through this alone. This isn’t any kind of burden for me, because I love who you are very much. And every time I remind you, I get to remember with you, which is my pleasure.
I know this is a difficult weekend for you. I refuse to pretend it didn’t happen, I want you to know you are the best mother I know. I am thinking about you and Lauryn this weekend. I am happy you are beginning to remember more positive memories of Lauryn. I know Lauryn gave you so much happiness, but please also know she was blessed to have the best mother too. You are on the right track.